HAILEYANELA

sometimes life gets really stressful really fast, the kind of stressful that has you counting down the hours until you can crawl back into bed. I feel like every time I cross one thing off my to-do list, three more things take its place, and the "catch-up game" is way too real. but sometimes you meet someone like robert.

celebrating life without you With 4 years of (sometimes uncomfortable) dating under my belt, I feel the need to share with the literate world my experiences in the "minefield of love". In this week's diary entry you will find a brief and condensed history of boys I've been around, and my thoughts of who you shouldn't date. Let me be very clear when I say that I am in no way qualified to determine the strength of another's relationship. All advice presented before you comes from personal experience and should be read as such. So here goes nothing... Part One: Hailey's History With The Opposite Sex Awkward isn't a strong enough word to describe myself around boys throughout my teenage years; more specifically high school. I had a hard time trying to read boys and was (& still is) a chronic over-thinker. I read too far into insignificant gestures and assumed that with just the right amount of outfit-planning, I could score myself a boyfr...

Unbeknownst to myself, time has once again gotten the best of me. This semester has 2 meager weeks left to live, in which I'm to pack up & move apartments, ace my finals, bid adieu to my sweet Canadian, and GRADUATE (it's only my associates, but still...). what the heck. Somehow I've turned into this partial adult with responsibility who has to start planning for the future. Like can't I just be that 8 year old hailey with the Hit Clips and Britney Spears diary without a clue in the world? That'd be nice and easy.....but not exciting. And we all know how much I live for excitement and adventure.  I've dubbed my 20th summer as my summer of traveling, experience, intrigue, adventure, thrill seeking journeys, sunshine, and fun and festivities. My hellish "summer of '14" was the worst I've yet to endure and I fully plan on rectifying the season. I'll be in school and working for a good part of the warm months, ...

you know that lack of feeling? that completely desolate moment where indifference reigns king? I had that. It was at precisely 12:19 this morning. It came with the chime of a text message. The sender was one who's status in my books had been troubled to say the least. once upon a time that sender had emoticons decorating their name, as time ebbed on the emojis were erased and the name was left naked; finally when the name itself was too much to bear a single syllable word took it's place entirely. i remember when the chime would come and with it excitement and lip-bitten smiles. i remember when those smiles faded to furrowed brows and a grimace of disdain and I remember when that was all replaced with clenched fists, & silence was the only response you'd get from me. I had been a passenger aboard your emotionally traumatic train, all the while you had never told me the destination. and then came the exhaustion. I never knew that exhaustion and defeat would...

WEEEEEE!! I'm so excited for the opportunity to be able to work with the social networking app  YikYak  as one of their USA Campus Reps for this Spring Semester! I'm SOOOO pumped to be working alongside the other students on campus in an effort to get everyone more connected and unified!! For those not familiar with YikYak; the best way I can explain it is like an anonymous Twitter...haha that description is fairly vague so it'd be best to just download the app and check it out for yourself! ;)  REXBURG KIDS: I'm in need of your help to help grow the herd, and I want YOU. Contact me via email, twitter, fb, or insta if you wanna get involved on campus, and have a blast meeting new people and maybe even scoring some free swag! (and/or taco bell...) on the outfit: I'm so in love with cozy, chunky knits right now because the frosty winter demands nothing less. The more layers the warmer. I threw on these leopard sneakers because the sol...

YAYYYYYYY! class is finally out and i've successfully survived my third semester as a college kid. praise. Now all that's left to do is pack up my room to move apartments and to pack to go home for the holidays! yippee! I'm seriously so stoked to have 2 weeks to veg and do a whole lot of nothing. there are so many things that I would do differently if I had the chance to start this semester over again, but on the plus side there are LOADS of things that I've learned from my dumb mistakes, and hidden gifts that I didn't realize I was blind to....so *drumroll for effect* here are my new favorite lessons and blessin's: never ever take good professors for granted. i've had the whole spectrum of teachers, from ones who I wish would adopt me as their child to teachers who couldn't be bothered to email me back. When you have a great professor who is passionate and teaches with gusto and life, take EVERY class they offer. no joke, I've had the s...

YAYYY FOR SCHOOL. just kidding I'm actually wearing black to mourn the death of summer (just the warm weather). so I only had my great books class today and honestly an hour long lecture was way too long and taxing on my attention span. But we left the apartment a bit late and couldn't find the right parking lot so we were stuck parked probably close to 100 miles from our building and HAD TO RUN TO CLASS. just like old times. Then once inside my designated building I couldn't find my classroom, and by the time I did I had to awkwardly walk in with everyone staring at me. (oh hey there) and then we were berated by my professor for our insufficient learning habits. like I don't even know you brahhh...but my day ended on a good note with a 2 hour nap and a free snow cone. happy school days students. p.s. the first time we went out for pictures I totally forgot the memory card for my camera. good one hailey. top: forever 21 jeans: american eagl...

once upon a time there was a young girl named hailey. she was a (slightly) shy and naive thing and had a difficult time staying true to herself. one day she decided she didn't give a flying fruit cake anymore and went off the deep end...the end. okay so that story is completely made up  (maybe) and a hundred percent not true (kinda). but when I was younger, I really didn't have much self-confidence and my self-esteem really suffered. It wasn't probably until I came up to the Burg last fall; that I finally started to feel more at ease with who I was and really express myself in my truest form. so here on the blog I'm going to share some tips and tricks that have kept me confident and cool. (okay I'm not really cool at all) first) you have to remember that everyone, and I mean EVERYONE is going through trials and struggles in their lives. We have all become masters at putting on a brave face and pretending as though we're absolutely fine and dandy. ...

So I am fully aware that I am blatantly stealing the title of The Hobbit, but it just fits my situation so perfectly that I had to... Well as mentioned in my previous post I was becoming more committed to the idea of staying here over the summer and just working until I leave back up to school. But with the start of a new job comes a new attitude. This past weekend I had just started my employment with a local daycare, and I thought that I would absolutely love it. I had gone there way back when I was only a small nugget. But to my surprise and dismay I wholly disliked the job (that's putting it lightly). The people were great and the kids fun, but I just felt stuck. My thoughts regarding my job there were jumbled and lost, and it didn't sit right with me. Then I could feel myself drifting back to the idea of attending BYU in June for summer semester. As much as I was trying to keep my outlook of Henderson positive, I will openly admit to wanting to get away. I felt like I was...

When I was still in high school and I imagined college, the first thing that came to mind was: freedom. No curfew, living by my own rules, and no "checking in". I was pumped to be my own guardian and ruler... Ok I know that sounds a bit exaggerative, but I was so ready to fly from my nest and not look back. And let's be real now, my first year of college was all that and more. I had amazing roommates, a comfortable apartment complex, and the only time I was "checking in" was to make sure, what we had dubbed the "couch boat", was clear for a cuddling sesh. I had gotten use to the semi-restrictive rules that our school Honor Code enforced, but regardless I felt like I was living the dream. I felt a sense of independence and liberty that I had never experienced when I had lived at home. The feeling had given me a glimpse of what life after college offered, a look into the near future where I could come home to MY apartment where I made MY own rules... Bu...

As this winter semester and my freshman year of college is coming to a close I have been reminiscing about all of the wonderful memories I've made and all of the fantastic people I've met. I've learned so much while I have been away from home. I’ve learned that if I want to get any amount of homework done my room has to be completely spotless. Or else my room and my brain will be cluttered. The key to not spending money on unnecessary things is to leave your wallet at home. Anything can be fixed with superglue. Spandex hot pants NEED to be worn under jeans in the wintertime or you WILL freeze. (This is a guarantee). The key to not buying a ton of random groceries is a shopping list….but even then you may deviate from it. Staying up until 3 in the AM then trying to drag through the day with the help of a Diet Pepsi doesn’t always work. Some people will become your friends, and sometimes you’ll make out with your friends. Living from one weekend to the next isn’t...